“Until he reaches his thirtieth year or thereabouts a man’s mental development will mostly consist in acquiring and sifting such knowledge as is necessary for the groundwork of a general platform from which he can examine the different political problems that arise from day to day and be able to adopt a definite attitude towards each. A man must first acquire a fund of general ideas and fit them together so as to form an organic structure of personal thought or outlook on life – a Weltanschhauung. Then he will have that mental equipment without which he cannot form his own judgments on particular questions of the day, and he will have acquired those qualities that are necessary for consistency and steadfastness in the formation of political opinions.” -Adolf Hitler, Mein Kampf
I am yet again under personal attack by individuals claiming to be ideological opposition. As it appears that these persons have absolutely nothing going on in their personal or professional lives, and are thus free to devote dozens of hours per week voicing their deranged, unclear qualms over the internet, it is appropriate that I respond here, and be done with it.
I have tried, in both my personal life and my life here on the internet, to always be as straightforward and honest as possible, and I sincerely believe that my record attests to this. However, as there are individuals who may be unfamiliar with my previous work, it is fair enough that I should repeat that which I have already clearly stated.
My Life and Struggle
From a very young age, I felt that there was nothing right about the modern American social order. In my teenage years, I began to seriously question the causes behind these problems.
During the entire time I have myself been searching, I have been vocal in sharing my views with individuals on the internet, and people I know in real life.
If you would have told me I would end up as a follower of Adolf Hitler, I never would have believed you. It just so happens that following the truth, and being honest with myself, this is where I ended up. If you believe that I should have been born understanding all that I write on my sites now, and would fault me for not having been born understanding it, then please, do not read my sites anymore. However, if you too have been on a personal journey to find the truth, and that led you to the White movement, then I believe you will sympathize with my own journey.
In my late teen years – more than ten years ago now – I got into Alex Jones and the various other “truth movement” figures of that period. During this period I became heavily interested in various conspiracies, as well as religious spirituals ideas, and read quite a bit. I examined the various religions, including Buddhism, Islam and the New Age, and it is my reading into the Christian doctrine during this period that would eventually lead me back to Christ at later period in my life. I also spent a good deal of time traveling the United States, and sleeping in my car.
At this time I was running outlawjournalism.com, along with the Outlaw Forum. I would continue to run these until I started Total Fascism, when I made the decision to shut them down.
As I became more involved in conspiracies, I began to feel more and more alienated, and at 23, left America to go live in Asia, where I worked teaching English and observed the culture. During this period, I developed an affinity for the Asian races, which is still with me now. I believe that they are a civilized, non-aggressive and industrious people.
During my mid-twenties, while still residing in Asia (and thus having easy access to cheap book-printing), I became an adherent of Jacques Ellul, Jean Baudrillard and Julius Evola, among other traditionalist, anti-modernist and transcendentalist philosophical thinkers, and began to explore the idea of “primitivism” – that is, the idea that a much simpler mode of living better served the human being, spiritually and socially. At this point, I went to spend time with various primitive tribes in the lesser-developed nations of Southeast Asia.
The offending materials from my past which are presently being spammed across Facebook and YouTube are from this period in my life.
Funnily enough, I am being accused of being a “cultural Marxist,” when that is the furthest possible thing from the truth. Throughout my own personal transformation, one thing was always clear to me: the life of a human being is meant to be based on relationships with other human beings, and must be founded in the traditional family unit. It was the destruction of the family which led to the breakdown of society and the eventual total alienation of the individual. At the time, I felt as though that was to be found among the more primitive societies. And it was. It simply turned out that I didn’t belong there.
After having spent more than a year among stone age types of people, I became discouraged, as it was clear to me that I would never be able to develop a meaningful relationship with these people, given that their minds were as primitive as their mode of living. I realized that the romantic philosophies I had indulged in regarding the simple life were simply romantic fantasy. The intellectualism that was necessary to imagine such things was never going to be present in the primitive world, and thus the reality of living in the jungle, picking fruit and hunting wild boar, could never match the idealization of this life.
While living in the jungle, I began drinking too much of a strong coconut wine brewed by the locals, began to feel deeply depressed and alone, and eventually left that life behind, forever. It was only among my own kind – those of the European race – that I would ever be able to share true kinship, as it is only they who share my blood, and can understand my soul.
I began to realize the importance of blood, due to this experience, and reflect on racialist material I had previously been exposed to. I realized that just as I would always have a closer connection, and a more complete understanding, with my father or my brother than a stranger down the street, I would always have a deeper connection with another European than with an Asian or person of any other race.
At this point, I returned to China, where I began delving back into literature. What I found was Mussolini, and then Adolf Hitler. In these two men, and the material that reading them led me to, I discovered that the ideas of traditionalism could be achieved within the modern structure, if one could defeat the forces of modernity and realize them.
This, then, became my goal.
Please note that this change in thinking took place flawlessly, as my previous worldview led, for me, directly into an understanding of what it was Hitler and National Socialism stood for.
It was not long after having completed a good deal of reading, and coming to these conclusions, that I began to become active on this internet, with this understanding in mind. Before starting my own website, I looked for others who shared my positions, and found very little. Though I located, and became enthralled with, William Luther Pierce, it seemed that at present, there was no one in America effectively presenting a comprehensive worldview of Euro-centric traditionalism.
After a couple of months, I launched Total Fascism, and began to promote the worldview I had developed. During my time writing this site, and researching, I became more and more sure of myself, and the ideas which I was promoting.
You know the story from there.
The Attackers and the Attacks
I am very comfortable with combating attacks on my ideas, and I am very good at it. Because of this, most who disagree with me appear to be afraid to directly attack my ideas, and instead look to attack me as a person. Because I have been so public with my life for so long, and because I now stand against miscegenation, it has proven very lucrative for those who wish to attack me to do so by posting material which I myself posted on the internet earlier in my life.
The attacks on my person started just after I launched Total Fascism, and have thus far not changed at all. The same videos and audio recordings are repeatedly spammed, mostly by a person with the fake names of Lewka Peel/Noah Peel/Yusuf Shakur, and several Negro friends of his (thus far, no person with a real, public identity has attacked me, which says quite a bit).
Before Lewka Peel became Yusuf Shakur, I used to talk to him on the phone, during a period, three years ago now, where I was making videos on YouTube about my experiences with tribal people. I would discuss my ideas with him, and he would listen and ask me questions, and I enjoyed it. Despite having an obsession with black American culture, which seemed to imply a lack of a personal identity, he was a fun person to talk to.
After I returned to China to work and study, Lewka and I lost contact. Later, after I started Total Fascism, I shared the site with him in an email. At this time I learned that Noah/Lewka Peel had become Yusuf Shakur. He had become a Muslim, and changed his fake name. Please note that he took his fake last time after his hero, Tupac (2 Pac) Shakur (I think this is really neat, lol).
Sometime after that, he decided to launch an attack on me, calling me a pedophile and a drug addict, and claiming that I was some sort of secret undercover agent working for – you guessed it – the United Nations.
He compiled a “dossier” on me, after having requested that people send him personal information about me to an email address he had set up. In this he includes some quotes from my old websites, along with some fake quotes, as well as some screenshots which have been faked (they don’t look to have been photoshopped, but rather a result of someone making a fake account with my name) to make it look like I said some things which fit into his narrative (these were probably sent to him by Jews, as I don’t think he is clever enough to have put that together).
Within this “dossier” he posted the names, phone numbers, Facebook pages and addresses of several of my family members which he had found on Facebook. Shocking as it is, he is apparently attempting to have acts of physical violence committed against not simply me, but my family as well. Without ever having said what his issue was.
This clearly, is serial killer behavior. And it gets worse.
From about this time last year, Yusuf Shakur became obsessively fixated on me, and particularly on my personal sex life, which he invented a bizarre and sick fantasy about, and tried to convince others to indulge in.
Having found a copy of a video that I myself uploaded, he decided that the girl I was in the video with, a Philippine girl (who was at the time second year college, so either 19 or 20), was a “child” and that I must have been having sex with her or I wouldn’t be in a video with her, and that this meant I was a “pedophile.” He then spread this around the internet, sending it to me in emails over and over again, posting on my site even though he knows it is going to be deleted, sending me rambling, threatening emails, and when he realizes he is blocked, creating new email addresses to harass me with. He contacted every friend on my Facebook page individually, spammed YouTube videos that had nothing to do with me, sent repeated emails to people he thought I maybe knew – and so on.
By my estimate, he was, at the time, spending between 25 and 35 hours per week talking about me on the internet. He now appears to be doing this again, without having come up with anything new.
I want to state clearly here that even now, a year later, after he has spent literally thousands of hours of his life attacking me as a person, he has yet to state a single qualm with any one of my ideas. Not one issue has been brought up. The entirety of his attack has been based on trying to defame me as a person, indulging an obsession over a fantasy he’s created about my sex life, and trying to have acts of violence committed against me and my family.
I have no idea what makes a person behave this way, but from what I have read about serial killers who develop psychotic obsessions, these things are usually sexual in nature. Though I cannot accuse him of this, and wouldn’t do so, in my own perception, Lewka Peel/Yusuf Shakur quite clearly has a psychotic homosexual obsession with me.
It appears to me that he is deeply jealous of the girl in the video, and thus has, in his sick psyche, created a reason why it is “wrong” for me to be hanging out with her – thus he accuses me of “pedophilia” for hanging out with a woman who is clearly an adult. Oh, and remember he is a Muslim, and so follows a Prophet who married a girl who was six, whose virginity he took when she was nine (and he used to take baths and masturbate with her before he decided nine was old enough to penetrate her) – so he clearly can’t care too deeply about sexual deviancy. This is something deeply personal, and deeply twisted.
We might also note that he is an anonymous internet person, who I believe works in fast food. His greatest life achievement is a failed attempt at a career in rap music.
It is possible that he is simply a loser who has accomplished nothing in his life, professionally or personally, living with family members in the town he was born in, and thus is deeply jealous that I have lived a life of intrigue, never afraid to pursue my dreams and live life to the fullest. Though that really doesn’t go very far to explain the obsession with my sex life, or the sheer amount of time he’s put into stalking me across the internet. I am literally the focus of his entire life.
Last year, he also called my father and asked him if he was “aware that his son is a pedophile.” My father, being the cheeky old boy he is, said “yeah, I know that, but that’s okay because I am too.” Obviously, this was sarcasm (who would say that otherwise?), but Shakur ran with it, editing the recording to make it seem more plausible.
Along with this, he has spammed an audio recording of me, recorded when I was drunk and unaware that I was being recorded, on which he, myself and a black guy named Paul Ironshore had a goofy, profanity-laden discussion. He has taken pieces of the discussion out of context, and attempted to make them appear to be serious statements.
Among these statements was something to the effect that the White race should be “bred out.” Of course, at the time it was recorded, I was very frustrated with the White race, given that I had for so long felt alienated within my own society, this was not something which I ever believed.
And again, I did not know then what I know now.
Putting Things in Perspective
If it was not for the journey I have gone on personally, I would not understand what I understand now. It required going through everything I went through to reach my present conclusions.
In many ways, the fact that I have actually lived for years among non-Whites, and still developed my present ideology, is a very good thing for propaganda. Repeatedly, those who believe as we do are accused of being “inbred hilljacks who believe what our parents taught us” – but my parents were terminally liberal, and raised me to be the same, and it took me years of personal struggle to work through all of the emotional, psychological and intellectual baggage attached to that to get to this place.
I do not, personally, believe that it is possible for an educated person born in the age I was born in to reach the conclusions I have reached without having gone on this type of personal and intellectual quest for the truth. There was literally no one to explain this to me. I had to find it myself. Now, I am in a position to explain it to others who grow up in this system, with an ability to understand where they are coming from.
Please also note that our goal is to appeal to the masses. Do you think that most Americans would be angered by the fact that I, as a “Neo-Nazi White Supremacist,” lived in Asia and dated Asian women? It seems to me that this serves to in fact make me much less offensive.
And I would ask you – what effect is this supposed to have on what I am doing now? Are those attacking me really suggesting that I should have been born knowing what I know? I cannot think of anything else that could possibly be implied by saying I am “exposed” by pointing out the fact, which I mentioned on one of my first posts on this site, that I have dated non-White women, before I was aware of the racial nature of human existence.
Then I would ask – would any hardcore and active nationalist care about the fact I had once lived in Asia and dated Asian women? I can tell you a definitive answer to that question, because I lived in Greece with the Golden Dawn for three months last year, and was very open about my life and personal history (because that’s my style): no, they don’t care. If you came at them with this goofy crap, they would tell you to go back to the laptop in your mom’s basement.
A party member actually saw the stuff about me that Lewka had posted (he probably sent it to them in his defamation campaign) and all that turned into was a joke when we were going out at night: “hey, if you see any chinks at the bar, tell em to watch out for this kid.”
No one other than a totally psychopathic weirdo, a Jew or an internet troll would make the idiotic claim that a person who changes their views is not to be trusted because their views have changed.
If I was a government plant, why would I first live in Asia and film myself there, then become a Nationalist? It makes zero sense.
If You Don’t Like It, Then Move Along
I have done a lot in the last year and a half. I have played a major role in formulating what is to become the new American Euro-centric traditionalist movement which I set out to help create. I am proud of what I have done, and I know for a fact that my work resonates with many, many people.
I do not expect anyone to accept the fact that I was not born understanding Adolf Hitler and National Socialism, or understanding the deep, sacred importance of the blood we carry in our veins. If you are not comfortable with the fact that it took me a process of personal development to reach the conclusions I have reached, then please, do not read my site. Go start your own site. But do not call me a “shill” or a “fraud” and claim that you have “exposed” me, as it simply makes you look like a pathetic, bitter individual who, being incapable of achieving anything on your own, must instead attack and try to tear down those who are achieving something.
I do not regret anything I have done, and I will not apologize for it.
If you take issue with any of my ideas, I am open to debating them whenever it is convenient for you.
January 14, 2014